👋 Hey, I’m Vivian.
I’m a 36-year-old wannabe surfer girl who recently moved back to Melbourne after living in London for 7.5 years (a city famously known for its incredible surf 🙃).
Growing up in Australia, I’d always dreamed of surfing. But coming from an Asian family, it wasn’t exactly encouraged.
Beach days were rare, and sun exposure was a hard no. I had very little experience in open water, and waves honestly scared me.
Plus, I didn’t know a single surfer—aside from the ones on Home and Away.
It wasn’t until uni that I met my first real-life surfer friend and thought of him as a minor celebrity (he rode a shortboard—so cool).
Years later, at 27, we reconnected and he took me to Torquay for my first-ever surf. I totally bombed. It felt impossible.
But something about being in the water gave me a thrill I couldn’t shake.
Soon after, I went to Lombok and Canggu to give consistent lessons a real shot. I never imagined I’d be able to catch a wave (even if I was pushed into it), and that feeling—euphoric, like flying—hooked me for good.
Then I moved to London, which made surfing even harder. But I squeezed in lessons whenever I could: Portugal, Morocco, Spain, France, even the Bristol wave pool. With 6 months—or years—between sessions, I never really got beyond standing up on a foamie.
Now at 36, I’m more aware of how age is slowly changing my body. And, honestly, it sometimes feels like the surfer girl dream is slipping away.
I know surfing’s for all ages, but in a society that glorifies youth, this is the first time I’ve really felt like time isn’t on my side. (Yes, I know it sounds silly—but it’s real!)
So last month, I spent 5.5 weeks in Indo surfing nearly every day, focusing on my pop-up, paddling, turns, and wave selection. My goal? To one day dance gracefully on a longboard.
But what surprised me most was the philosophical stuff the ocean started teaching me: don’t hesitate, flow with the energy, stay present, surrender. As a lifelong non-morning person, waking up at 5am used to feel like hell.
But sitting on my board at sunrise, staring out at the horizon, I kept hearing the words, “The only time is now.” And in those moments, it felt like I was receiving a gift.
Now I’m more hooked than ever. I bought my first surfboard, paddle out whenever I can in Melbourne, have fully convinced my algorithm I’m a surfer girl, and am already plotting my return to Indo to build more surfing independence.
Surfing is a wild journey—and I’m totally in love.